Hi All!
The months keep flying by and I cannot believe it's already midway through November! Redding has hit it's most beautiful season with all the trees turning red, yellow, and orange! Bethel is amazing and I am so blessed to be able to be here and to take another year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry! As you may have heard I am going to be going to the land of the Vikings (NORWAY) in March.
My team will be ministering at conferences, youth camps, churches, a club/outreach (it's a club that is run by Christians and draws in about 400-600 non-christian youth to hear the gospel!) and on the streets of Norway. I
am so excited for what God is going to do in this beautiful country and I am hoping that you will all stand with me in seeing the Holy Spirit transform Norway, whether in prayer or financially! I am in need of $195 dollars by tomorrow and the total cost of the trip is $2,450. If you would like to donate to this trip and help me get to Norway you can donate online! Blessings and love you all!
♥ Jana-Marie
https://www.ibssm.org/?action=donate&target=missions&student_id=211474
Monday, November 14, 2011
Monday, October 31, 2011
Two Month Recap
Being home in Redding, California and going back to Bethel has been similar to a breath of fresh air. The loveliness of it all has caused the first two months of School of Ministry to fly by and it's hard to believe that tomorrow is the start of November!
I feel as though I have received so much information and knowledge in the first months of school. I have been impacted by is the need for community, vulnerability, accountability, and surrounding yourself with friends that you can pour into and they'll pour into you as well. It's been such a growing time for me in learning how to develop valuable, healthy community with people I love.
Process, that has been a majority of what I've been going through. Life is such a journey and if the attempt is made to skip the process the outcome may possibly not be the same. Something that is spoken out quite often here is that if you value and get the process right, the product is assured. So, in this moment I am learning to value the process and this stage of my life that I'm in.
I have recently found out that I will be going to Norway in March on my missions trip with the school!!! I am very excited to go to Norway and see all that God will do!!! My team will be ministering at youth camps, conferences, churches and in the streets all over this beautiful country!!! Last year I went to Ecuador and it blew my mind and I learnt so much! The countries are very different from each other but we have the same Holy Spirit at work. To get to Norway I will need to raise $2,450.00 and I have to put a 10% deposit on my trip by November 15! God provided last year in amazing ways for me and He is so good! If you would like to donate to my missions trip to Norway you can go to
https://www.ibssm.org/?action=donate&target=missions&student_id=211474
I appreciate your prayers and support so much! Thank you for running with me in this race!
I love you all!
I feel as though I have received so much information and knowledge in the first months of school. I have been impacted by is the need for community, vulnerability, accountability, and surrounding yourself with friends that you can pour into and they'll pour into you as well. It's been such a growing time for me in learning how to develop valuable, healthy community with people I love.
Process, that has been a majority of what I've been going through. Life is such a journey and if the attempt is made to skip the process the outcome may possibly not be the same. Something that is spoken out quite often here is that if you value and get the process right, the product is assured. So, in this moment I am learning to value the process and this stage of my life that I'm in.
I have recently found out that I will be going to Norway in March on my missions trip with the school!!! I am very excited to go to Norway and see all that God will do!!! My team will be ministering at youth camps, conferences, churches and in the streets all over this beautiful country!!! Last year I went to Ecuador and it blew my mind and I learnt so much! The countries are very different from each other but we have the same Holy Spirit at work. To get to Norway I will need to raise $2,450.00 and I have to put a 10% deposit on my trip by November 15! God provided last year in amazing ways for me and He is so good! If you would like to donate to my missions trip to Norway you can go to
https://www.ibssm.org/?action=donate&target=missions&student_id=211474
I appreciate your prayers and support so much! Thank you for running with me in this race!
I love you all!
Friday, September 23, 2011
Seventy Hours
It has been quite a while since I last wrote in this blog, I can blame my hectic summer work schedule for that one! Seventy hours a week of working two jobs wasn't exactly how I was expected my summer to be like. But God is good and he provided in so many ways!
Throughout the year Bethel makes these declarations and one that was frequently repeated was "jobs and better jobs"...as the year ended at Bethel I started feeling twinges of nervousness and anxiety in thoughts of returning home and started the hectic endeavour of job hunting. Months prior to the end of school I had applied online for a job with City or Medicine Hat but I had heard nothing in return about my application so I had given up on that job.
I arrived back in Medicine Hat on an early Thursday morning and was going to head out that day to start the daunting task of looking for a job however I decided that I need at least one day of rest before thrusting myself into a work life. Friday comes and I get an unexpected call from the city asking for an interview! That was a complete shock as I had assumed that my application had been looked over and I didn't get the position. Then that very same day I go into a local restaurant and hand in my resume, within a couple of hours I got called in for an interview and got hired on the spot! So in three days I got two jobs, one fulltime at forty hours a week and my waitressing job I was getting around twenty to thirty hours a week!
My summer was most certainly not the easiest but I had great motivation to work as I was already preparing to return for second year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. Having a goal in mind definitely helped push me through three months of on average seventy hours a week of work.
Now I have been home in Redding, California for almost a month and am loving it! Already in Second Year I am learning so much more about myself and God and it is definitely a breath of fresh air to be back with amazing friends! This was most certainly worth the exhausting, hectic, frustrating hours of work I put in. My lesson for the value of hard work is learned.
Love you all!
Throughout the year Bethel makes these declarations and one that was frequently repeated was "jobs and better jobs"...as the year ended at Bethel I started feeling twinges of nervousness and anxiety in thoughts of returning home and started the hectic endeavour of job hunting. Months prior to the end of school I had applied online for a job with City or Medicine Hat but I had heard nothing in return about my application so I had given up on that job.
I arrived back in Medicine Hat on an early Thursday morning and was going to head out that day to start the daunting task of looking for a job however I decided that I need at least one day of rest before thrusting myself into a work life. Friday comes and I get an unexpected call from the city asking for an interview! That was a complete shock as I had assumed that my application had been looked over and I didn't get the position. Then that very same day I go into a local restaurant and hand in my resume, within a couple of hours I got called in for an interview and got hired on the spot! So in three days I got two jobs, one fulltime at forty hours a week and my waitressing job I was getting around twenty to thirty hours a week!
My summer was most certainly not the easiest but I had great motivation to work as I was already preparing to return for second year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. Having a goal in mind definitely helped push me through three months of on average seventy hours a week of work.
Now I have been home in Redding, California for almost a month and am loving it! Already in Second Year I am learning so much more about myself and God and it is definitely a breath of fresh air to be back with amazing friends! This was most certainly worth the exhausting, hectic, frustrating hours of work I put in. My lesson for the value of hard work is learned.
Love you all!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Final Say
It has been far too long since I have last written in this blog, and sadly it is right at the end of my school year as a First Year student at Bethel that I finally put my final thoughts of this year on here.
What to say? So much has happened this year and I feel that attempting to write it all out on this blog would not do a justice.
These past nine months have been the most amazing months of growth, encouragement, empowerment and love I have ever felt. This experience legitimately has completely transformed so much of my life, who I thought I was, what I thought I had to give, and how deep God's love is for me...always. I honestly can say I feel like an entirely different person since September at the start of my school year. Although I know seasons are always temporary I wouldn't have minded if this season had gone a bit longer or passed by a little bit slower. Thankfully I will be returning for Second Year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry in September!
I would say that there definitely have been a few of main things that have impacted me and that I have learnt this year, so I will endeavour to write them in this blog in decent sized paragraphs!
Identity has been a huge thing for me this year, God has totally transformed my heart and my mind, and He has showed me who I am as a daughter of the King and as an individual in this world. One thing God kept asking me over and over on one of the first days of school was if I would grasp onto the revelation of His love. I had heard all about His love, sometimes I felt it but a majority of the time I just knew about it. When I finally told God I wanted a revelation of His love I suddenly had an understanding, not just in my head, but in my heart, that God loved me every moment of every day. Since then I have felt such an assurance of His presence and His joy.
Another would be attitude. I have the power to say no to my attitudes affecting my actions, and I have a choice to how I will react. For so long I would let my attitude and other's attitudes towards me determine and cause reactions instead of cultivating healthy, wise responses. It still is a process of remembering this lesson and acting out. Practice makes perfect.
After being in this place of not knowing where I wanted to go with my life and what I wanted to do for quite some times a little bit of irritation had risen up. Many, many times I would receive prophetic words that would be almost exactly what someone else had prophesied over me previously but would have absolutely no idea what I wanted to do or what the words even meant. Eventually it would be of no surprise to me that I would have the same thing spoken over me...again and again and again. Finally God gave me the most brilliant idea and totally connected the dots of my life and my passions together. I now know where I want to go, what I want to do....and how I'm going to get there is all a part of this adventure. So this year I have definitely had been given direction with the passion that I had already had.
There is so much more that has impacted me, all the teaching I have received from Bill Johnson and Kris Vallotton and so many more have been the hugest blessing to me. Bethel has definitely cultivated a culture of honour, integrity, love and joy in such a way I will always remember this year and all this church has done for me! I look forward to all that second year will help me grow in. God has been so good and so faithful this year and I feel nothing but blessed!
I will be heading back to Medicine Hat to work and save money for my second year at Bethel as I have to raise $3,950 for my tuition next year. This summer will be a great time to putting everything I have learnt into practice.
See you all soon! And thank you all so much for your prayers, financial support and just taking the time to read my blog!
Love you all!
What to say? So much has happened this year and I feel that attempting to write it all out on this blog would not do a justice.
These past nine months have been the most amazing months of growth, encouragement, empowerment and love I have ever felt. This experience legitimately has completely transformed so much of my life, who I thought I was, what I thought I had to give, and how deep God's love is for me...always. I honestly can say I feel like an entirely different person since September at the start of my school year. Although I know seasons are always temporary I wouldn't have minded if this season had gone a bit longer or passed by a little bit slower. Thankfully I will be returning for Second Year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry in September!
I would say that there definitely have been a few of main things that have impacted me and that I have learnt this year, so I will endeavour to write them in this blog in decent sized paragraphs!
Identity has been a huge thing for me this year, God has totally transformed my heart and my mind, and He has showed me who I am as a daughter of the King and as an individual in this world. One thing God kept asking me over and over on one of the first days of school was if I would grasp onto the revelation of His love. I had heard all about His love, sometimes I felt it but a majority of the time I just knew about it. When I finally told God I wanted a revelation of His love I suddenly had an understanding, not just in my head, but in my heart, that God loved me every moment of every day. Since then I have felt such an assurance of His presence and His joy.
Another would be attitude. I have the power to say no to my attitudes affecting my actions, and I have a choice to how I will react. For so long I would let my attitude and other's attitudes towards me determine and cause reactions instead of cultivating healthy, wise responses. It still is a process of remembering this lesson and acting out. Practice makes perfect.
After being in this place of not knowing where I wanted to go with my life and what I wanted to do for quite some times a little bit of irritation had risen up. Many, many times I would receive prophetic words that would be almost exactly what someone else had prophesied over me previously but would have absolutely no idea what I wanted to do or what the words even meant. Eventually it would be of no surprise to me that I would have the same thing spoken over me...again and again and again. Finally God gave me the most brilliant idea and totally connected the dots of my life and my passions together. I now know where I want to go, what I want to do....and how I'm going to get there is all a part of this adventure. So this year I have definitely had been given direction with the passion that I had already had.
There is so much more that has impacted me, all the teaching I have received from Bill Johnson and Kris Vallotton and so many more have been the hugest blessing to me. Bethel has definitely cultivated a culture of honour, integrity, love and joy in such a way I will always remember this year and all this church has done for me! I look forward to all that second year will help me grow in. God has been so good and so faithful this year and I feel nothing but blessed!
I will be heading back to Medicine Hat to work and save money for my second year at Bethel as I have to raise $3,950 for my tuition next year. This summer will be a great time to putting everything I have learnt into practice.
See you all soon! And thank you all so much for your prayers, financial support and just taking the time to read my blog!
Love you all!
Monday, March 28, 2011
Ecuador!!!!!
It is hard to believe that my missions trip to Ecuador has come and gone already and that I have gladly returned to Redding, California. This trip was one of growth, not where drastic differences took place in my life, but subtle, life-changing differences that will impact me for the rest of my life. One thing that has changed in my heart is that any experience, trip or circumstance is truly what I will make of it and how I respond to whatever happenstance comes across my path.
My team of 15 people, including me, arrived in Ecuador late Friday night and stayed the night in a hostal in Quito and headed out early Saturday morning to our final destination which is a beautiful city nestled in the Andes Mountains, Loja (pronounced lo-ha). When my team and I made it to Loja we were welcomed by the warmth of South American culture and heat! During our first day we were able to do a little sightseeing around Loja, one thing we were able to do was go to this abandoned castle on a hill that overlooked all of Loja. It was so amazing and beautiful, after looking at the magnificent view my team and I discovered this huge room with the most amazing acoustics...us having a talented singer noticed the atributes of this room and started to sing. Eventually we joined in and the voices of the team harmonized in such a crazy way. After being up in this castle for about two hours we made our way down the hill that we had hiked up.
We headed to the craziest park I had seen....there were different sections to the park and each section kind of had a different country with their monuments...castles, temples etc. Since the park was crowded we had resolved to split up and go on a treasure hunt. I had felt an odd pain in my back and my team and I noticed this old lady sitting at a little "kiosk" selling little goodies. So we went up to her and asked if she had pain in her back, she did, and I pointed specifically to where I had experienced the temporary pain and she nodded again. I was able to pray for her and when I had finished a big smile came across her face....she had exclaimed that she had no more pain and felt so much better! First of many healings that happened in Ecuador!! We were off to a good start!
Sunday was a very busy day, we had three services that day with two in the morning and one at night. Every service was amazing and God's presence was so amazing! Healings galore, I got to prophecy on stage over specific people and God totally rocked many lives in the church!! I was also able to do my first prophetic painting...I haven't painted for probably 10 years and even then it was probably a pony or something. I painted a tree and it was huge for me to start to paint again and prophecy through that painting!
We had a total of 5 services in 3 days so it was slightly overwhelming, but still so amazing! I continually was able to pray for healing with women that had problems in their abdominal area which was funny to me. It was like God was giving me a "specialty" to pray for while at this church in Loja. Everyone was healed and all pain and discomfort left, making room for God's peace, joy and love to invade their lives!!!!
Monday we went to a hospital and was given complete freedom to go from room to room and pray for healing...no limits!!!! After being given a firm warning from a Catholic priest that was there (haha) and he had announced a firm warning to believers in the Catholic faith over the intercom we spread out to pray over people! It ended up being me and one interpreter and two people from Cuanca that were just there to observe and "gleam" from us on one half of a floor! Healings happened all over and God's peace was so huge there...people were having encounter after encounter with the presence of God. A man had broken his leg and couldn't move it and was in alot of pain...we prayed and he felt heat all that way up and down his leg and he could move his toes! No more pain! Many patients had incisions across their stomachs and many were in pain....all pain gone once again! We arrived in one room and i felt a weird pain on my head while praying for one patient....I asked if he had problems with his head and he said no, so we finished praying with him and went to the next patient. We asked what was wrong with him and he said he had brain problems, hahahhaa funny...God spoke so clearly I just needed to press into that word of knowledge, I then felt that he experienced dizziness and just as I was about to ask my interpreter tells me..."he gets dizzy alot". After praying all dizziness left and he felt God's unmistakable peace! Such a fun and freeing time spent in the hospital!
We had a leadership meeting with the leaders of the church, Verbo, in Loja, the Holy Spirit released so much over the leadership of worship, children's ministry, the pastors and the dancers! That night was insane and by the end we were all messed up by God's hilarious joy and love!!!!!
Thursday we headed to Gualaquiza, a small town right on the border of the Amazon jungle, it felt like I was in the middle of an episode from Planet Earth!!! It was so amazing and beautiful! After getting settled at the hotel we were staying at we did a little sightseeing there as well....or the people of Gualaquiza did. Apparently white people there is a rare siting so the stares were many. hahaha.
The church in Gualaquiza was much different than the one in Loja, definitely broke through alot of spiritual walls and strongholds in that small church. People of the church were encountering Jesus left, right and center! He is so amazing and wanted to encounter everyone there! Tears were many is all I can say and each encounter people had with Jesus was different but they all said the same thing...God is love and He love's to love all of His children! We were able to prophecy alot and speak into the people's lives alot. So many healings were happening, both physically and mentally and emotionally! No part of human life is limited to what God's love can do! The final night was such a party...we had a fire tunnel but somehow I had branched off on my own with a couple of little girls and started dancing. It was hilarious and eventually there were about 12 little kids following my every move and dancing with me! It was probably one of the most freeing experiences I had there in Gualaquiza!
There was so much more that happened on this trip but its hard to put it all into words on a blog!
Thank you to everyone who donated towards this amazing and life-changing missions trip I had to Ecuador and thank you to those who remained with me in prayer! You pouring into my life was also you pouring into the precious lives of the Ecuadorians! God bless you and I send my love!!!
My team of 15 people, including me, arrived in Ecuador late Friday night and stayed the night in a hostal in Quito and headed out early Saturday morning to our final destination which is a beautiful city nestled in the Andes Mountains, Loja (pronounced lo-ha). When my team and I made it to Loja we were welcomed by the warmth of South American culture and heat! During our first day we were able to do a little sightseeing around Loja, one thing we were able to do was go to this abandoned castle on a hill that overlooked all of Loja. It was so amazing and beautiful, after looking at the magnificent view my team and I discovered this huge room with the most amazing acoustics...us having a talented singer noticed the atributes of this room and started to sing. Eventually we joined in and the voices of the team harmonized in such a crazy way. After being up in this castle for about two hours we made our way down the hill that we had hiked up.
We headed to the craziest park I had seen....there were different sections to the park and each section kind of had a different country with their monuments...castles, temples etc. Since the park was crowded we had resolved to split up and go on a treasure hunt. I had felt an odd pain in my back and my team and I noticed this old lady sitting at a little "kiosk" selling little goodies. So we went up to her and asked if she had pain in her back, she did, and I pointed specifically to where I had experienced the temporary pain and she nodded again. I was able to pray for her and when I had finished a big smile came across her face....she had exclaimed that she had no more pain and felt so much better! First of many healings that happened in Ecuador!! We were off to a good start!
Sunday was a very busy day, we had three services that day with two in the morning and one at night. Every service was amazing and God's presence was so amazing! Healings galore, I got to prophecy on stage over specific people and God totally rocked many lives in the church!! I was also able to do my first prophetic painting...I haven't painted for probably 10 years and even then it was probably a pony or something. I painted a tree and it was huge for me to start to paint again and prophecy through that painting!
We had a total of 5 services in 3 days so it was slightly overwhelming, but still so amazing! I continually was able to pray for healing with women that had problems in their abdominal area which was funny to me. It was like God was giving me a "specialty" to pray for while at this church in Loja. Everyone was healed and all pain and discomfort left, making room for God's peace, joy and love to invade their lives!!!!
Monday we went to a hospital and was given complete freedom to go from room to room and pray for healing...no limits!!!! After being given a firm warning from a Catholic priest that was there (haha) and he had announced a firm warning to believers in the Catholic faith over the intercom we spread out to pray over people! It ended up being me and one interpreter and two people from Cuanca that were just there to observe and "gleam" from us on one half of a floor! Healings happened all over and God's peace was so huge there...people were having encounter after encounter with the presence of God. A man had broken his leg and couldn't move it and was in alot of pain...we prayed and he felt heat all that way up and down his leg and he could move his toes! No more pain! Many patients had incisions across their stomachs and many were in pain....all pain gone once again! We arrived in one room and i felt a weird pain on my head while praying for one patient....I asked if he had problems with his head and he said no, so we finished praying with him and went to the next patient. We asked what was wrong with him and he said he had brain problems, hahahhaa funny...God spoke so clearly I just needed to press into that word of knowledge, I then felt that he experienced dizziness and just as I was about to ask my interpreter tells me..."he gets dizzy alot". After praying all dizziness left and he felt God's unmistakable peace! Such a fun and freeing time spent in the hospital!
We had a leadership meeting with the leaders of the church, Verbo, in Loja, the Holy Spirit released so much over the leadership of worship, children's ministry, the pastors and the dancers! That night was insane and by the end we were all messed up by God's hilarious joy and love!!!!!
Thursday we headed to Gualaquiza, a small town right on the border of the Amazon jungle, it felt like I was in the middle of an episode from Planet Earth!!! It was so amazing and beautiful! After getting settled at the hotel we were staying at we did a little sightseeing there as well....or the people of Gualaquiza did. Apparently white people there is a rare siting so the stares were many. hahaha.
The church in Gualaquiza was much different than the one in Loja, definitely broke through alot of spiritual walls and strongholds in that small church. People of the church were encountering Jesus left, right and center! He is so amazing and wanted to encounter everyone there! Tears were many is all I can say and each encounter people had with Jesus was different but they all said the same thing...God is love and He love's to love all of His children! We were able to prophecy alot and speak into the people's lives alot. So many healings were happening, both physically and mentally and emotionally! No part of human life is limited to what God's love can do! The final night was such a party...we had a fire tunnel but somehow I had branched off on my own with a couple of little girls and started dancing. It was hilarious and eventually there were about 12 little kids following my every move and dancing with me! It was probably one of the most freeing experiences I had there in Gualaquiza!
There was so much more that happened on this trip but its hard to put it all into words on a blog!
Thank you to everyone who donated towards this amazing and life-changing missions trip I had to Ecuador and thank you to those who remained with me in prayer! You pouring into my life was also you pouring into the precious lives of the Ecuadorians! God bless you and I send my love!!!
Saturday, February 12, 2011
February's Sunshine
This month has been magnificent! We have had phenomenal speakers come to BSSM and pour into my class....Sy Rogers came as well as Georgian and Winnie Banov and it was amazing! Touching on subjects such as purity, joy and freedom.
So this month I have learnt alot about how I have the power to determine my attitude that then affects my actions and that choosing joy as a lifestyle is just that, a choice. Being in this environment I can't help but learn so much!
God is continually bringing new and newer revelations to me and what I have to bring and the creativity I possess. There are so many things that I want to do but I have realized that I need an action plan to achieve these goals. These have just been a few of the things that have really inspired me to do more with my life and my time. I feel so encouraged and empowered to pursue dreams and desires that are within my heart. One of which is writing, I have created a new blog to write about life and things that are truly on my heart. If you car to take a read here is the website.
www.janamariesusan.tumblr.com
Thank you all so much for your support in reading this blog and it means so much to me!
Also. I am just $630.00 short of completing the funds for my missions trip to Ecuador! Thanks to those of you who have generously invested into me and this trip!
If you would like to donate you can go to:
https://www.ibssm.org/?action=donate&target=missions&student_id=211474
Be so blessed!
So this month I have learnt alot about how I have the power to determine my attitude that then affects my actions and that choosing joy as a lifestyle is just that, a choice. Being in this environment I can't help but learn so much!
God is continually bringing new and newer revelations to me and what I have to bring and the creativity I possess. There are so many things that I want to do but I have realized that I need an action plan to achieve these goals. These have just been a few of the things that have really inspired me to do more with my life and my time. I feel so encouraged and empowered to pursue dreams and desires that are within my heart. One of which is writing, I have created a new blog to write about life and things that are truly on my heart. If you car to take a read here is the website.
www.janamariesusan.tumblr.com
Thank you all so much for your support in reading this blog and it means so much to me!
Also. I am just $630.00 short of completing the funds for my missions trip to Ecuador! Thanks to those of you who have generously invested into me and this trip!
If you would like to donate you can go to:
https://www.ibssm.org/?action=donate&target=missions&student_id=211474
Be so blessed!
Sunday, January 23, 2011
God Knows Best.
School as always has been amazing, I am learning so many new things and am getting spoken into by my classmates, leaders and speakers continually.
One thing that I have gotten huge revelation on this year so far is to ask God what my passions, dreams, and hopes are. I have been in this season for quite some time now of not knowing what I am truly passionate about and what I want to do with my life and how do I want my life to make its imprint on this world. Ever since GX God has just been rearranging my life and I am seeing the need so much more now for Him to take the lead. God has definitely got bigger dreams for me than I do for myself, and I have full confidence in Him and His ability to lead me.
The other day I was talking to God and expressing my confused state of slight stagnancy, although I feel like I will be at Bethel for a while longer, I don't know exactly what I am to focus on, and His simple yet profound response was "You never asked Me". It makes me laugh when I realize that I never asked my Creator what my purpose is, and how He tells me so simply why I don't know my destiny yet. Sometimes He leaves our destinies a mystery...but sometimes we leave our destinies a mystery because we fail to ask God "what am I?".
Since then I have come to the realization as to how important it is to daily as God "what am I?". He answers best, He knows best. I love God so much for how He talks to me in a way that can most impact me, simple. He doesn't give some huge theological, philosophical response, He knows my language just like He knows your language.
Now the challenge.
Will I remind myself to ask God to remind me who I am. In doing so the answer of the question hidden below the surface of that question..."what's my purpose?". I will most definitely try, and I would recommend you to do the same.
God does know best.
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
One thing that I have gotten huge revelation on this year so far is to ask God what my passions, dreams, and hopes are. I have been in this season for quite some time now of not knowing what I am truly passionate about and what I want to do with my life and how do I want my life to make its imprint on this world. Ever since GX God has just been rearranging my life and I am seeing the need so much more now for Him to take the lead. God has definitely got bigger dreams for me than I do for myself, and I have full confidence in Him and His ability to lead me.
The other day I was talking to God and expressing my confused state of slight stagnancy, although I feel like I will be at Bethel for a while longer, I don't know exactly what I am to focus on, and His simple yet profound response was "You never asked Me". It makes me laugh when I realize that I never asked my Creator what my purpose is, and how He tells me so simply why I don't know my destiny yet. Sometimes He leaves our destinies a mystery...but sometimes we leave our destinies a mystery because we fail to ask God "what am I?".
Since then I have come to the realization as to how important it is to daily as God "what am I?". He answers best, He knows best. I love God so much for how He talks to me in a way that can most impact me, simple. He doesn't give some huge theological, philosophical response, He knows my language just like He knows your language.
Now the challenge.
Will I remind myself to ask God to remind me who I am. In doing so the answer of the question hidden below the surface of that question..."what's my purpose?". I will most definitely try, and I would recommend you to do the same.
God does know best.
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Thursday, January 6, 2011
On My Way Dear Ecuador......
I love stories of God's crazy amazing provision...just hearing them builds up so much faith and is encouraging...but testimony after testimony of how God was supernaturally providing the finances for other Bethel student's needs made me wonder...would God every provide for me in the most surprising ways???? Or would I be one who just gets to hear the testimonies and agree about how God truly is Jehovah Jireh and not experience it first hand. God has always had a hand of provision over my family's life and I recognize how He truly cares for His children and desires to see their dreams fulfilled as much as we do, but I want more.
Well before Christmas break I was kind of telling God all that was on my heart...how I needed the finances to come in so I could make my first missions trip deadline on January 5th so I could go to Ecuador with Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. After getting that off my chest I randomly received a message from a guy that I had met once and he told me how he wanted to donate money to go to my missions. He said "just a little bit". Faith starts small...so I told God that at least $100 would be fantastic thinking it wouldn't be that much just because I didn't really know the guy. An envelope comes in the mail, and as I open this envelope I pull out a bunch of twenty dollar bills....as I counted them out it came to a total of $400.00!!!!
Then I sent out another message to friends on January 3rd about how I need to make my deadline in two days! I go to bed that night and was kind of getting nervous about how I needed quite a bit more money to come in. Well I had a dream that someone had donated towards my missions account...so I wake up the morning of January 4th and head straight to the computer knowing that someone had given me money for my trip to Ecuador. Sure enough as I look up my school account online...someone from my family had donated $150.00, during the day money kept coming in and coming in and eventually in one day a total of $580.00 came in!!!!!!!
God continually is showing me more and more of His love and care and how He is the ultimate provider!!!! I feel so incredibly blessed by Him and especially to my dear friends and family who have poured so generously into my life and am so grateful!!! Thanks barely can express how loved I feel!!!
God is always good...always.
Well before Christmas break I was kind of telling God all that was on my heart...how I needed the finances to come in so I could make my first missions trip deadline on January 5th so I could go to Ecuador with Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. After getting that off my chest I randomly received a message from a guy that I had met once and he told me how he wanted to donate money to go to my missions. He said "just a little bit". Faith starts small...so I told God that at least $100 would be fantastic thinking it wouldn't be that much just because I didn't really know the guy. An envelope comes in the mail, and as I open this envelope I pull out a bunch of twenty dollar bills....as I counted them out it came to a total of $400.00!!!!
Then I sent out another message to friends on January 3rd about how I need to make my deadline in two days! I go to bed that night and was kind of getting nervous about how I needed quite a bit more money to come in. Well I had a dream that someone had donated towards my missions account...so I wake up the morning of January 4th and head straight to the computer knowing that someone had given me money for my trip to Ecuador. Sure enough as I look up my school account online...someone from my family had donated $150.00, during the day money kept coming in and coming in and eventually in one day a total of $580.00 came in!!!!!!!
God continually is showing me more and more of His love and care and how He is the ultimate provider!!!! I feel so incredibly blessed by Him and especially to my dear friends and family who have poured so generously into my life and am so grateful!!! Thanks barely can express how loved I feel!!!
God is always good...always.
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)