Live and Learn

I can't believe it but I am already on my way back to sweet California to complete my first year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. My visit back in Medicine Hat was a good one...definitely strange returning to family and the life that I left. My family is such a blessing to me and like family usually does they push me in my character and its always a challenge to live out a culture of honour at home more than out in the public eye. Slowly the revelation is hitting me...that ministry first and foremost begins in the home...in the secret places that no one else sees but your family. The biggest obstacle in life, particularly mine, is learning to become who you are and steward your attitudes and your actions as Christ would. Home is where you first become real. It's where you love, live, learn and grow. It's the greenhouse to your garden of your heart.
I am always in a state of learning, and part of that learning is learning to accept correction and listen to it and apply it...even if its not the most splendid part in growing in my identity.
I am excited for what the new year has for me though...and God has done so much in 2010...so so much and I am very blessed for where He has taken me and where He is leading. During this past year I was working at Montana's and Starbucks saving up for school and I also staffed the Pursuit Internship DTS in Medicine Hat based out of the Global Prayer House, but BSSM has definitely been the highlight of 2010.
Where will God take me in 2011? I don't know for sure...I have some ideas but I am not stressing. I know God and that He will only lead me on a path that He has constructed ahead of me. Life is an adventure and I am just enjoying it one adventure at a time.
I cannot worry about tomorrow....my worry will not help it at all.

Matthew 6:34

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Hope you all have an amazing celebration of the new year that is coming upon us so fast! Enjoy it!
Love you!

Christmas Time

Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry (BSSM) is already on Christmas break...four months of living in Redding, CA and going to school there have flown by so quick! Every day at school is one of growth and of challenges...but in those challenges I grow and just come to love Bethel even more. God has been so good to me and over the past four months He has been restoring my joy but even more so my peace. The Holy Spirit has been speaking to me about the need to have a place of rest, not just in my spirit, but also physically, He has also shown me that having a place of rest and relaxing is not being passive as long as you steward your time wisely. So many times I just want to lay down and listen to Hammock (such a good instrumental band) and invite the Holy Spirit to just come and chill with me. In those times I am reminded that when I give my thoughts and even a bit of my day just to rest with the Holy Spirit it is in those times that rejuvenation and joy are restored....now its only making this a habit thats the trick.
Resting for me is a place of intimacy between God and me. He helps me to return to His loving, forgiving embrace as a daughter turns to her dad. He is my place of comfort. Psalm 62:1-2 has been my favourite verses, I've never had a favourite verse but these two have been my constant reminder of where my true peace comes from,

Psalm 62:1-2

" Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken."


Although I already miss Bethel home is going good. It has been so good to catch up with family and friends and be able to share all that God is doing in my heart and the changes that are taking place, it is also good hearing whats been happening in their lives since I left Medicine Hat in September. Home has been a happy reunion....but I am not enjoying having this reunion with the cold and the snow.
Christmas time has helped me realize how truly blessed I am. I am so very thankful for everything that God has provided for me and given to me...both spiritually and even materially. It is so easy to take the simple things that God has given me in life for granted when they are so common, something that has helped me realize how truly blessed I am is maintaining this attitude of thanksgiving to God, my provider. Even thanking Him for the little things.
I am so overwhelmed by God's goodness....ah soooooo good!

Outro-Shad

These are amazing lyrics quoted by Shad....so true and oh so good!!!


We spend our lives searching like scavenges finding a way
Understanding that light is a sign of the day
So we squint in the darkness in search of a glow
And falter in trying, in trials we grow
Are hearts they seam broken
Our legs they are weak
Our tongues are exhausted from trying to speak
Cos sometimes they listen
But often they don’t
We easily help
But more often we won’t
Because we’ve constructed the things that we want
Ghosts our desires, desire to haunt
But our needs as below so above
What we all want should look a little more like love.